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http://www.tribals.com/gallery/tribal32.gifi want a tattoo kinda like the one above. if you alter it a little it looks a lot like a treble clef.

back in tennes...

back in tennessee. i miss chad and brickle and angevine so much. i hope i'm not wasting my time here. p.s. the royal tennanbaums was a long, boring movie.

So, which ...

So, which Fraggle ARE YOU most like? Click here to find out.cool

note to self...

note to self: you are only as mad as you let yourself get.

grrrr, s...

grrrr, snow is pretty to look at and all, but it may prevent me from taking my car back to school.=( it also kept me from seeing chad today. double =(well, i go back to nashville on monday and i haven't seen half the people i thought i would this vacation. there were so many people i wanted to hang out with but nothing worked out. i didn't go to any parties..mainly because i'm walking on a line with my parents and i didn't want to risk anything that could jeopardize my relationship with them anymore.i never thought i'd say this, but the party lifestyle is starting to get old. not the "parties" but the people and the drinking and all. drinking is fun, but after last weekend i thought the world would never stop spinning and it scared me. ignoring God is getting old too. i've been wanting to live my own life, with noone telling me what to do, not even Him. its so much easier in a way but so much harder being so stubborn. and acting so selfish makes me feel really bad about myself. its just, i'm afraid of not being able to have fun.i am selfish. i lie to my parents so i can do what i want. i lie to my friends so i won't look bad. i lie to myself so i can try to justify my actions. i've broken commitments to God, myself, and my parents.heh, i guess admitting the problem is the first step towards recovery, right?i think its time i go back to the way i used to be. i wanted to experience things, and i did. and i like the way it used to be better. i used to help people to help them, not so it could look good on my resume. i've hurt a few people, and i've gotten what i deserved. no i take that back, God has been merciful!

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"I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it."ayayay, i've managed to get myself in trouble once again. my parents are never gonna trust me if i keep doin shit like this. who woulda thought that one little white fib would turn into a heapful of stinking lies. i guess one could say i've been humbled by this experiance. i will never again see the light of day.

ah christ...

ah christmas, the day i sit around with my all male relatives watching saturday night live reruns and eating pumpkin pie. how merry.i'm just so bored. it really sux that christmas gets less and less exciting each year. its just becoming so routine. i don't even know what to ask for anymore. i'm grateful for the presents i opened though. i got a digital camera and over $500. i also got the collection of poems by shel silverstein "falling up." that man is my childhood hero. i'm on my way home tomorrow (thank god)but right now its time for fun games with the family. oh boy.i'm just filled with christmas spirit.

aargh!!! my m...

aargh!!! my mom is driving me UP THE WALL!!! she is the only thing that makes me want to leave and go back to nashville right now. she picks and nags and questions and nags. thank god she has a job now or i would be stuck with her all day. ::sigh:: on the lighter side, my relationship with chad is better than ever. we've talked about things in the past 3 days that we've never talked about in our 9 month relationship. i feel like we've opened up to eachother, i can completely trust him and he also can trust me. and when he tells me he loves me i don't doubt it anymore. we have really enjoyed eachother the past 3 days.

i'm really j...

i'm really just testing my picture. i went to see micro last night and was a little disappointed. i guess progressive trance just isn't my thang. i spent most of the night dancing in the back room which was mostly filled with the sounds of uk hardhouse and other styles similar to that.i can't wait to go home on monday! i'm really worried about my algebra exam that morning though, its going to be hell.anyways, time to get my study on!

wh...

when someone walks up to you in the mall and says "have you ever thought about being a model?" its quite flattering. i went to their meeting at their offices, they took my picture and said we'll call you monday at 10. i wake up ten minutes early on monday so i don't sound like i have phlegm in my throat when i answer the phone. i'm a little excited, but i don't really expect to make in because i'm about 2 inches too short to be a real model. well, 11 rolls around and i have to go to class. it is now 1 and they still have not called. i'm not going to lie, i'm a little disappointed i didn't make it, but they could have atleast called to tell me that, instead of left me here...wondering. oh well, i've lost nothing but a little respect for that company.

wh...

when someone walks up to you in the mall and says "have you ever thought about being a model?" its quite flattering. i went to their meeting at their offices, they took my picture and said we'll call you monday at 10. i wake up ten minutes early on monday so i don't sound like i have phlegm in my throat when i answer the phone. i'm a little excited, but i don't really expect to make in because i'm about 2 inches too short to be a real model. well, 11 rolls around and i have to go to class. it is now 1 and they still have not called. i'm not going to lie, i'm a little disappointed i didn't make it, but they could have atleast called to tell me that, instead of left me here...wondering. oh well, i've lost nothing but a little respect for that company.

i'v...

i've come to the conclusion that live journal SUX! it rarely works, grrrrr!!!

whew! i ha...

whew! i had a perty good thanksgiving holiday. a VERY busy one though. i had a performance friday night that i feel went very well. my friends tell me they're starting to worry about my losing weight. brickle said my cheeks were starting to hollow. gross. hopefully i gain enough to be healthy looking over christmas break. though i was disappointed i didn't get the oppurtunity to spend time with everyone that i wanted to, i still had a great time meeting the people that i talk to so much. i cannot wait for christmas break so i can see everyone. i was all gung-ho for school at the beginning of the semester, but now i've become such a slacker! i should be working on a paper. i finished a new song, i really like this one. its sound is a little different from my others, it features the piano a little more and shows off my voice a little better also. anyways, i think this week is going to be a hell of one, so i need to get movin.

i ju...

i just met with my advisor. i'm taking 17 hours next semester. thats 13 different classes. geez, the life of a music major...

When The Pa...

When The Pawn Hits The Conflicts He Thinks Like A KingWhat He Knows Throws The Blows When He Goes To The FightAnd He?ll Win The Whole Thing ?Fore He Enters The RingThere?s No Body To Batter When Your Mind Is Your MightSo When You Go Solo, You Hold Your Own HandAnd Remember That Depth Is The Greatest Of HeightsAnd If You Know Where You Stand, Then You Know Where To LandAnd If You Fall It Won?t Matter, Cuz You?ll Know That You?re Right -fiona applei love this. it makes me feel so good for some reason.

i have s...

i have so much energy today! its beautiful outside, its days like this that i feel God the most. its days like this that i don't care what anyone could say about me, i don't try to impress anyone anymore, let them think what they want but i like me. i hate that it took me so long to stop worrying about what others think. i don't even care about guys anymore! ha! its grreat! right now i feel like i could go my whole life without a man, i feel so independent. the feeling probably won't last long though, tonight i'll be sitting in my dark room wanting someon to cuddle with. but for now!! i'm enjoying this feeling.